Happy new month, may this month usher in the best of all we desire.
Lately, I have been thinking on what to blog, the events that resonate with our lives that we may draw a lesson or two from. I soon realised the only thing on my mind right now is me. My thoughts, feelings, and moods seemed momentarily glued on just me, and not just me, but me in the past. This usually happens around this time on a yearly basis because I will be a year older in twelve day's time. The gratitude, nolstagia, and expectations around my birthday celebration and all pushes my constant busy mind into some kind of introspection.
What would life have been if I were on a different path? If I made a different choice among those that have greatly impacted my life? If I pursued a different dream or if I simply were a different person altogether. If my personality wasn't formed or shaped around what it presently is. If I had different influences, philosophies and notions that nurtured my growth and formed my backgroud.
Would I be happier, richer, more successful, more famous, more influencial or would i be miserable, stranded, unsuccessful, ungrateful, and unkind.
Would it not be something to somehow find out if I would still be here no matter what I had choosen earlier in life and the path I have followed earlier in life. Would I still be a better person, or just a random figure still wandering around the planet. Were there things in my past I could have changed or did differently that would have altered my life positively permanently in a far measure than this, well, I bet there must be loads of those things.
Sometimes, it is fair to wear the hat of a stranger and take a critical walk unbiasly into one's life and examine the kind of life that has been led so far. You can be your best critic and your best cheerleader, the choice is always personal.
As I reflect on my coming birthday, I am glad am still around, I am content where I have been and where I am so far, Iam hopeful, thoughtful, and mindful of how I havae turned out as a person over the years and where to improve upon. I hold no regret but I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I went after different girls, studied different courses, lived in different cities, had different frineds, made different enemies, and pursued different passions. Even if only for the fun of it, I dare to allow myself such luxury of thinking about the past introspectively.
So, I asked a friend if something is wrong with me for doing this, if maybe it is not healthy emotionally but I found even the mere exercise of introspection has its own benefit and I am not alone in this case, I found most people do it too anyways.
The Lesson here is this;
Introspection helps to be aware and apt about times gone by, never to be regained.
It also helps to be aware of chapters not yet written in someone's story, changes can still be made, history can still be made.
It helps additionally to appreciate the value of time, how constantly it flies away speedily with changing seasons and cycles all over the world. It is nothing personal, it is just the way it is!.
So, that's how I allowed myself reminisce, humour, and soberness from the chapters of my previous days gone by.
WHAT CAN YOU LEARN FROM THIS?
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